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It might be a bit sudden to break this news. But yeah... I'm aiming to leave the country in early Jan. I can't delay any more longer if I want to keep my plan on track.
My decision was made a week ago. I'm not joining the Singapore's agency as earlier considered. I didn't choose the shipping line company where I'm already familiar with the battle field and made friends with some colleagues that I've known on the job. I have actually sent my cv to the executive director. Though my boss has offered himself to speak on my behalf, I prefer direct approach and thought that it would be better valued. But beside than the reply "Yes. Reverting" none coming in after that (except if "Hi Ing" is considered as a reply when Mr.DO was at my office few weeks earlier).
You can say I think highly of my self but I'm confident that I have what it takes to join the company. If you don't think that I'm very much kicking arse but so far I hardly giving bad impression. To extra boost my confidence did I say Mr.DO had asked my boss if I confirm coming? He asked about me like how many times? Not to mention himself asked me during lunch session abt when I'm coming to s'pore? Aha! Well I take that as an interest. But why the hell he didnt REPLY?!! False hope *sigh*. Well heard that the company have reached the maximum quota for overseas workers. No more recruitment. Or maybe he is TOO BUSY! Yeah... who doesn't know this Mister Man Who Do It All is ALWAYS BUSY!
Anyway no reply means no interest. So I decided to just forget it and move on to the other company who already has interest on me since mid this year. Voila! I still can have the job and I can come as soon as early Jan. Great! So I am announcing the big decision in my life. After my whole life do it like my parent way. Here I am taking a big step of choosing how I want it to be. My dream of moving to Singapore is as soon as Jan 2008. Holaaa! \ (^__^) /
Then the mood crasher this morning makes me want to bang my head. My boss seem to hold me till the very last minute. Tho I've confirmed him many many times about my decision. And I've told him also that I'm leaving in Jan with or without job. He still asked my 1 month notice! Omg! When I told him that no reply coming from Mr.DO and I've confirmed my join to another company. Then he asked me not to confirm first as he'll talk to Mr.DO. Isn't it a bit TOO LATE now? If I want to get the job I want to get it my self not bcuz of my boss. If I don't value my self, how can others value me? In the other hand I've given my confirmation and the company has arranged my work permit. How can I break my own confirmation? NO! Please don't force me to do that. Gosh~~ I really wanted to cry.
Clock is ticking and I have yet to find a place to stay. I'm getting panic (- -")
Ok ok talk so much. I'm getting stressedf up. Lucky tonite will have dinner with my friends at Cosi. Be it the Idul Ad'ha dinner or X'mas dinner. I need destressing!
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